Friday, April 4, 2008

Fighting the system

Why is it when you need something the most you always end up with the short end of the stick.

This week has been a horrible week for me..I wasn't feeling good at the beginning of the week and as it progressed I ended up in the E.R of my local hospital diagnosed with having mini whole left side was going numb. I have no insurance and where I live I don't qualify to have state coverage..even though I am married with 3 children and my husband works for minium wage. Finding a doctor is the hardest part of all. There are clinics that are based on income..but the paper work takes forever to get filed and approved. I am in the process of doing that now. However..I am very concerned about what happens in the mean time...if I get sicker I have no recourse but to go back to the hospital and be admitted this time..and that is not something I am looking forward to doing. I have so many unpaid doctor and hospital bills now I will never be able to pay them all. I was looking forward to trying to clear up our credit to buy the house we now live in..that I feel is only a pipe will never ever happen now. I feel so totally lost and I just want to give up..go to bed and not get up again. I know I can't ..I have children..teens but somehow I know they still need that gentle push or swift kick to motivate them in I have to stick around.
I am trying hard not to get to down about this..but the future is not that bright..I guess I can put away my shades.

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